athenathegreat7

Wow it has been a very long time since I've been on. I almost feel nostalgic. Anyways Well I've been at college a new one ( well I've been there a  while). It very nice up there,yet incredibly hard and stressful. I am doing my very best. I am majoring in history and minoring in Anthropology but plan on going to Archaeology. I am in the middle of Applying to Field School as we speak. It will be an incredibly opportunity if I am chosen to go. I am a shoe in to get in. I just have to decide if this is the best time to go.  I change roommate this year and got into a 6 bed room apartments , but there is only Kathy and Allie. So we each get our ow

I wish my family and friend would understand me. I wish anyone would understand. I going through so much pain. I cry and feel hopeless. I have panic attacks. I want people to understand. Maybe I want someone to care. I feel like they have no clue and don't care. I scream in my head for help but have to pretend everything is fine. The worse part is that I was going ok. I was getting better. I'm work so hard to be happy but WHY! WHY DO I FEEL SO HORRIBLE! WHY IM I HAVIG PANIC ATTACKS? WHY DO I CRY? I'm trying. I really am. Why can't I be happy? Why doesn't anyone understand? I try to reach out for help but no one will help me. I feel like I

I know you guys probably don't read my stuff but I like writing once and a while. so summer come to an end and I didn't really do anything. Well I did get to go into some abandoned hunted house with friends. Which was super scary and fun. Also I spent my time work and at the beach. But mostly I worked. I really unhappy at work. I don't want to talk about it in detail right here but I do need advice on what to do. school starting and I nerves because I graduating this year. Of course I'll hopefully going to another college but I'm very worried because most of my friends couldn't go to go on a higher degree at a different college because fina