I know you guys probably don't read my stuff but I like writing once and a while.
so summer come to an end and I didn't really do anything. Well I did get to go into some abandoned hunted house with friends. Which was super scary and fun. Also I spent my time work and at the beach. But mostly I worked. I really unhappy at work. I don't want to talk about it in detail right here but I do need advice on what to do.
school starting and I nerves because I graduating this year. Of course I'll hopefully going to another college but I'm very worried because most of my friends couldn't go to go on a higher degree at a different college because financial dad wasn't enough or they couldn't get a high enough loan. Most of them were just a few thousand off. It scary because it just shows how bad is for college students. I don't have many to pay for college myself. I'm scared once I graduate I can't stay at my college because they don't let you have financial aid. Even if I go under a different degree.
Also I was think about joking the drama club or theater to get over my stage fright but mostly because most of my friends have gone away. So I have to make new ones at school. I don't want to go back to the newspaper. I want to try new things. I want to keep busy but happy.
Also I been have this feeling about getting a very small tattoo. I have dreams or the need. I keep have a feeling of wanting one really bad. But I not into really getting anything permanent really unless your are super sure. Also my parents would flip. I couldn't face my mom because she would be so disappointed. She fine with me getting piecing and dying my hair or cutting it. But I keep getting a urge to get one for months now. I just don't know why.
Well a lot of changes are coming and I get scared with changes.
I want to feel fulfilled really and be sure about the future. But I guess that a lot to ask.
Mood: Daily Needs
Listening to: The tv in the background
Playing: Animal crossing
Drinking: Long Island