I wish my family and friend would understand me.
I wish anyone would understand.
I going through so much pain. I cry and feel hopeless. I have panic attacks. I want people to understand. Maybe I want someone to care. I feel like they have no clue and don't care.
I scream in my head for help but have to pretend everything is fine. The worse part is that I was going ok. I was getting better. I'm work so hard to be happy but WHY! WHY DO I FEEL SO HORRIBLE! WHY IM I HAVIG PANIC ATTACKS? WHY DO I CRY?
I'm trying. I really am. Why can't I be happy? Why doesn't anyone understand? I try to reach out for help but no one will help me. I feel like I'm searching in the darkness.
What's the point of living? I feel useless. I feel like in a peace of shit. I'm not worth loving or living.
Playing: Animal crossing
Drinking: Long Island